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[studmuffin]

1. I'm bored.
2. My head feels like it's full of BEES.
3. Also kind of horny frustrated.

PEOPLE I MISS:
a. My dad.
b. Scott.
c. ...

Comrades in the City (having more friends is awesome????)
1. HAWKEYE 8D
2. Mae.
3. LeahandSerrure they are like a pair htey only count as one.
4. Natasha (?!?)
5. Chase bcause he gives me glorious drugs.
6. Der ... no.
7. Charles and Mag Erik even though they don't know it yet.

Reasons why I am sexually frustrated as of right now:
i. DEREK HALE oh my god why am i typing??
ii. ...
iii. ....
iv. his hair is rediculous.
v. he thinks he's really scary but he's not.
vi. he has rabbit teeth.
vii. and literally seventy billion abs.
viii. god his ass is like sent down from the greek gods ok not my fault.
ix. WHO NEEDS SEVENTY BILLION ABS?
x. no really my dick might fall off if he doesn't put his face in a bag or something
xi. he's super aggressive maybe he has some unresolved sexual thing. ha!

Reasons to masturbate:
- sTRESS FUCKING EVERYWHERE.
- fear.
- nightmares.
- derek hale and his ugly face.
- bee head?!

Problems I will now face:
+ MY BODY BEING FOUND WITH ITS THROAT TORN OUT IN THE WOODS.
+ ...
+ no really can i get an guard or something?

My life:
a. sucks.
b. is full of horror.
c. no actual sex is being had.

( ooc: so Stiles has been hit with the list curse. Under the cut is something that is predictably not safe for work and literally too much information. I am so sorry. )

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[unwheeled]

Mister Stillinski.

[ Yeah no try again. ]

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[studmuffin]

I know there aren't actual bees in my head, does that help?

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[unwheeled]

No, I'm afraid not.

If you allowed me to speak to him it would possibly avoid the necessity of you articulating any number of things, but I suspect you would have to trust me with that information first.

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[studmuffin]

[ That just has Stiles rubbing his face in a weary attempt to get the control back. ]

I don't want to switch. That would mean all sorts of awkward side-effects and the constant question of will this freaking work and I -- I hate the City enough without playing with my head to boot.

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[unwheeled]

It is not merely a question of changing medication, Stiles. You need more to do, more to focus on, and outlets that are... well, I hesitate to say better because that is an argument I refuse to have with you at any point in either of our lives, but perhaps more productive?

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[studmuffin]

Like what? There's no school, no lacrosse, I am kicking my heels.

[ Fuck, he misses home. ]

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[unwheeled]

Thus the reason I'd like to speak to your doctor. To see if we can't come up with something that will actually help.

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[studmuffin]

Um.

[ He has a headache. ] It's a curse, a curse with no filter, I'm fine.

[ Not. ]

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[unwheeled]

[ Small sigh. ]

Stiles.

[ Does he actually need to say that he knows Stiles is lying, or? ]

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[studmuffin]

Okay yeah, this is just --.

[ Weird. ]

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[unwheeled]

The concern of an adult and someone who is studied in psychiatry. Not to mention a 'comrade' apparently.

I would like to help; will you allow me to do so?

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[studmuffin]

There's a lot of stuff I can't talk about though.

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[unwheeled]

So I can imagine.

But your treatment can be discussed without delving too deeply into other affairs, can it not?

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[studmuffin]

So if I say I have panic attacks nobody's going to ask me why?

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[unwheeled]

If you say you have anxiety attacks, and the triggers themselves cannot be removed or directly discussed, then there are other options. There have to be.

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[studmuffin]

I've had them since my mom died.

[ He doesn't say anything for a moment. It's lying while telling the truth. That's when they started but he got better. But everything that's happened, the monsters and the fear and the never-ending constant panic just brought them all back. ]

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[unwheeled]

[ Charles is not going to ask about his mother's death because he already KNOWS it's a topic that Stiles doesn't want to touch at all. ]

Have they gotten better or worse since you arrived here?

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[studmuffin]

It depends on the curse of the day.

[ Thanks, Charles! He doesn't want to talk about his mom ever. ]

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[unwheeled]

Have you tried establishing a routine here? Obviously this can become problematic in it's own ways, I realize.

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[studmuffin]

I wouldn't even know what to do, y'know? Back home I had reasons to repeat actions and crap. Here it's just me. And Derek. And we can go days without talking so.