058 x 850 // voice // but let me explain...

[dignity_misery]

I would have become a slavering animal. He was all I had to keep my mind in place, and it was still deteriorating. I would have eaten him eventually. Eventually.

I decided my mind was more important than my dignity.

He decided that his art was more important than my dignity. He made the choice and I didn't kill him for it.

Because I loved him. He was all that was there to love.

I wasn't worth it anymore, rotting away and hungry for what I couldn't have.

And he never gave it. He kept me starving for him.

I should have eaten his throat out while he was sleeping.

Comments

[skintoskin]

Whoa. Our 'date' better not go like that.

[dignity_misery]

[And because it's a day for detailed explanations...]

I haven't eaten anyone in months. You're more entertaining alive, anyway.

[skintoskin]

Uh, that's good. Yeah.

And thanks...

Do you really eat people?

[dignity_misery]

Reanimates eat people.

[skintoskin]

Uh...

[That doesn't really help or reassure him or... anything.]

Right. Ask a silly question...

[brobeforehos]

...you eat people. [Carla, no. Carla, why.]

[dignity_misery]

Reanimates eat people.

[It's the only thing they live for.]

[brobeforehos]

And you're a reanimate. Is that like a zombie?

[dignity_misery]

It isn't considered 'politically correct' to call them zombies. But yes.

[AND SINCE WE'RE EXPLAINING,]

I'm infected with the Reanimate Virus, I'm not a Reanimate anymore.

...

Not entirely.

[othersdie]

What prevents you from eating people now?

[dignity_misery]

The virus is suppressed. [Since it's a day for explaining:] And I'm calmer.

[othersdie]

I don't understand why you didn't kill him.

[dignity_misery]

There was nothing else tying me to humanity, without him.

[Because suddenly that mattered when infected with a mindless flesh-eating beast.]

[deadmanbusiness]

I've always been told by the women in my life that if I don't treat them with dignity I deserve to have my throat ripped out... or burned to a crisp... or stabbed... shot...

[His voice trails off briefly as he contemplates the women in his life.]

[dignity_misery]

He brought me back from the dead to keep me as a toy.

[This is why he deserved to have his throat chewed out.]

[deadmanbusiness]

That was ... [He hesitates here, somewhat conflicted... well... his father doesn't keep his mother as a toy, right?] n't right.

[dignity_misery]

[A piece of art would have been more accurate, on Carla's end. Her bitterness led her to abbreviate.]

No, it wasn't. He didn't have any right.

[yourlastdance]

Eat? Is this figurative or literal eating?

[dignity_misery]

Literally eat.

[yourlastdance]

But...There are so many delicious things in the world- well, worlds, really -to feast upon! You needn't resort to cannibalism, sweet lady! Say no to cannibalism!

[dignity_misery]

Reanimates eat people.

[...Now she just likes to eat everything...]

voice;

[signatures]

Carla?

voice;

[dignity_misery]

I was just explaining, why I let myself love him. Made myself, maybe.

voice;

[signatures]

Has he ever shown up here?

voice;

[dignity_misery]

[Wibble.]

Yes. I didn't see him. Saya broke him first.