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poly_chromatic2013-06-06 11:59 am
dignity_misery) wrote in poly_chromatic2013-06-06 11:59 am
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058 x 850 // voice // but let me explain...
I would have become a slavering animal. He was all I had to keep my mind in place, and it was still deteriorating. I would have eaten him eventually. Eventually.
I decided my mind was more important than my dignity.
He decided that his art was more important than my dignity. He made the choice and I didn't kill him for it.
Because I loved him. He was all that was there to love.
I wasn't worth it anymore, rotting away and hungry for what I couldn't have.
And he never gave it. He kept me starving for him.
I should have eaten his throat out while he was sleeping.
I decided my mind was more important than my dignity.
He decided that his art was more important than my dignity. He made the choice and I didn't kill him for it.
Because I loved him. He was all that was there to love.
I wasn't worth it anymore, rotting away and hungry for what I couldn't have.
And he never gave it. He kept me starving for him.
I should have eaten his throat out while he was sleeping.