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( Alexiel's communicator is sitting on the edge of her bathroom sink. The picture is obviously skewed. This is a video that no one was meant to see.

As she stares at her reflection wearing little more than a bath towel, she reaches up and touches her cheeks. There is a strange light in her eyes and, for those who are sensitive to such things, a pulsating, powerful aura surrounding her. She raises a hand and the towel begins to slip, revealing more of her pale skin yet, at the last second, she comes back to herself enough to grab it with her free hand. Her upraised hand is soon pressed against the glass of the mirror. )

Am I meant to seek you endlessly? ( She doesn't shed tears, however the emotion shaking her voice is obvious. ) You will never know.

( Waiting in the City is slowly grinding against her self-restraint. She moves in a way that suggests she is forcing herself to bury all of the negative emotions her appearance causes her to feel.

So like him. Twins.

There really is no telling what she sees in the mirror. Are they nightmares? Visions?

To have this body and not be able to reach him is torture. This is a side she never wanted anyone else to see. With a quick swipe of her hand, she knocks her communicator away from her and the screen goes black. )

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It's not your fault.

God planned and manipulated everything from the beginning. The bastard.

A deity of chaos. One that shouldn't be allowed to rule.

Thanks to you, everyone is better off.

[Frustrated sigh.] Or they will be, when I get home.

It will happen. ( Though she understands his frustration. )

I know....

But I don't wanna think about that. Not now. I don't know when I'll be able to go back, and I just can't think about it anymore. I'd rather be here, for now. [He gives Alexiel a squeeze.] Just for a little longer.

You don't have to. ( Likewise she doesn't have to think about Rosiel. ) I like having you here.

Good.

...I wasn't sure. I thought I'd just be in the way, before.

Never. ( The idea is preposterous to her. ) You're...a part of me.

And you're a part of me, too. Or, it feels like it, at least.

I just...I always felt so inferior to you. You were this amazing person everyone was looking for, and expecting to be in me, and I'm just, well, just me.

So I thought I wouldn't be necessary, not anymore.

Setsuna, it's true that I have lived much longer than you and forged relationships with angels, demons and even humans. But what I have done and who I am has nothing to do with you.

( Her brow furrows. )

There is a reason I didn't want to wake up. Being with you and following your life, for a brief time, did give me peace. I have never felt that peace with any of my other lives.

I know. Like I said, I'm just me.

But I'm sorry you had to wake up. I knew you wanted to stay asleep. But things didn't work out that way.

I needed to wake. ( For Setsuna, for Sara, for everyone. ) No one can stay in their dreams forever.

Yeah. [He pulls away at that.]

[Was this a dream? Like his dreamworld of Sara? Like the illusion of the ring? Should he wake from it?]

I couldn't stay in my dreams, either. It's not healthy, and nothing gets accomplished when you do that.

( She watches him, staying motionless. )

Should I pinch you?

[He cracks a smile to that.] Maybe.

But this could be a dream of a different sort. I've not really been looking for a way out like I should be.

Maybe because every time we attempt to find an exit, the Deities strike back and put us in our place.

( But... )

Even so, we shouldn't stop.

No, we shouldn't.

[He sighs.] But I don't really want to leave this life I've got here. Not completely. [He doesn't want to say goodbye to Alexiel and Kira. But he wants Sara back. It cannot be made simple.]

I don't think you will. ( There's something to be said for memories ~~that don't get suppressed~~. ) We will be linked to one another no matter where we go.

I know. But this is nice.

[He hugs her again, to show what he means.] I hated you before. I was confused, and unhappy to have someone using my body against my will. It took so long for us to reach a better understanding. Something I was okay with.

This is better.

I don't blame you. ( She would be just as upset at the prospect of being controlled. ) I'm glad you can have a life of your own.

( And speaking of Kira... )

It's better if he doesn't have to take a life connected to me again.

[It's dark, but he still has a puzzled expression on his face. The confusion can be heard in his tone.]

Why would he need to? I mean, he isn't really.... When I go back....

What do you mean?

That's just it...

This time, he doesn't need to; he doesn't need to be kind.

There's no reason anything like that should come up again.

And I don't die, remember? I just come right back. [He still doesn't understand why she brought it up, but he tries to be encouraging.]

( Ah memories, Setsuna. Lots of them. )

You're right and I'm glad of it.

( She ruffles his hair affectionately. )

[To that he calms, and in return, reaches over to lightly move her hair behind one ear. Just to touch. It always makes him feel better when someone messes with his hair, after all.]

Then it'll be okay. I won't make him do something like that again.

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