( audio 32 )

[yourbestguysgun]

'm just gonna chalk this up to some future thing I don't get, but whatever it is, it ain't funny.

[ It's audio simply because Bucky doesn't quite want to broadcast I got tortured by HYDRA and all I got was this lousy t-shirt. He still has to go to work though, has to be a normal human being for once even if all he wants to do is set the damn thing on fire. Whether or not he's out of it is optional the mood he's in. ]

Anyone care t'explain it?

( ooc: feel free to run into him at any point if you want to. he will be the grumpiest, but it's good with me. )

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[yourbestguysgun]

No way. [ Shaking his head. ] You're dead on your feet, darling.

[punchedhitler]

I'll be all right.

[He had coffee.]

[yourbestguysgun]

[ He shakes his head. ]

There's no way you're going to work in my place. I'm fine. I'm going. I'm not letting you do my shift.

[punchedhitler]

[He recognizes stubbornness, too.]

What if it upsets Rosella?

[Sometimes, sometimes, he can appeal to Bucky's desire to protect dames]

[yourbestguysgun]

I'll lie. She doesn't know what HYDRA is, does she?

[ Don't guilt him on this, Steve. ] Look, I don't - if I stay here I'm just going to end up thinking about it.

[punchedhitler]

Okay, okay.

[yourbestguysgun]

[ Tugging at the hem of the shirt suddenly. ]

I wish I could just turn my mind back, y'know? To before. And then it wouldn't bother me so much.

[punchedhitler]

I should have gotten there sooner.

[yourbestguysgun]

[ Do you think they did something to me? It's on the tip of his tongue, confused by what's been said to him over and over again. But he can't lump that on Steve, he can't. ]

Don't. You came for me, that's all that matters.

[punchedhitler]

[He has broad shoulders, he can handle it.]

I always will.

[yourbestguysgun]

[ Bucky closes the gap between them, hand curling around his wrist helplessly. ]

I'm sorry.

[punchedhitler]

You got nothing to be sorry for.

[yourbestguysgun]

Yeah, I do.

[punchedhitler]

What's that?

[yourbestguysgun]

I just -. [ A sigh. ] I'm kind of struggling here. And I keep trying to push it out so it doesn't get in the way, y'know? [ Because he's never been good with feelings. He's more of an action guy than anything else, he can do but he hates feeling. ]

[punchedhitler]

[Steve nudges him]

Don't be dumb.

[yourbestguysgun]

I am dumb.

[ Nudging him back. ]

[punchedhitler]

My head doctor in New York said nothing gets better if you don't talk about it.

[Of course did Steve listen? Not really, no.]

[yourbestguysgun]

And you used t'pretend you were fine each time. [ Until he wasn't. Bucky knows how that feels. ]