poly_chromatic | video + deity filter unhackable;

[He didn't post the day before, too busy trying to look after Kira, enjoying his freedom and getting something right in his head. He has something really important to say, and he needs to make sure this is worded perfectly. But screw it, he'll just toss that out and say whatever comes to mind when he gets there.]

Just so you know, some of you suck at taking care of kids. Still, sorry if I gave you any trouble. Gabriel, you were awesome, though. Kira-senpai, thanks for putting up with me.

Charlie, thanks for looking out for me. I know I can be a handful, and you at least tried to help put me in the right direction.

Katan, don't be such a push over. If you want something, go for it. Don't let anyone else influence that.

Raphael.... Unh. I didn't really mean it, what I said? I was a stupid kid, okay. Except I might've had something with the parent talk. ALSO, I didn't forget, you LIAR!

Hey, Karl! Was that little guy you? Sharl?

And Rosiel. You're ugly. Stop asking little kids such weird ass questions!

[DEITY FILTER]

[Because, yes, Setsuna can filter. Wow. Go figure.]

So, I gotta talk to you guys about something. And for once I don't feel like blowin' off your heads.

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

You prefer my abnormal self?

...I just prefer you okay.

[SOB, Sets. He'll never be okay while he's in The City. He's Issues Incarnate :|]

A pity. I'm not sure how that's possible.

[Yeah, wow. That just makes Setsuna worry more.]

.... It isn't? Does anything make you happy?

[Oh Sets <3]

Ripping throats. Spilling blood. Fueling misery. Etcetera.

[Yeah. He's just being a Perverse Puppy now. Maybe it'll get the Cherub off his case.]

[Um, no. It won't get him off Karl's case.]

THAT makes you happy? Really?

[Oh, hey, yeah, Setsuna? Karl is NOT SANE. Yes, he might remind you a bit of Rosiel. GEEZ, I WONDER WHY!]

What else could there be?

[INSANE WEIRDOS! UNITE!]

There's lots of other things.

Being your friend when we were little...that made me happy.

[Sigh. You had to bring that up, Sets 8(]

That was a different me. From decades ago. It isn't who I am anymore.

[Except for the part where he's still sort of girlish-looking.]

So? It still proves there are other things in life that can make people happy! We all change as we grow up.

And, especially after that, I still want to be your friend. Although, don't know how well I can deal with the whole ripping people up stuff.

At your age, everything seems quite rosy and optimistic.

But as we grow older, not all of us change into something that is good or easy to fix.

Not really.... [He doesn't expound on that, though.]

I know that. My best friend is the Devil, remember? And...sooner, rather than later, he's going to turn against me, and it's not going to be something I can talk my way out of.

Actually, things just get harder and harder. Do they ever get easier? I can't believe that. But I refuse to believe it all has to end badly, too.

If you know he's going to turn on you, then you ought to turn on him first. It's a simple rule. Devour or be devoured.

...

You can believe what you want. But nothing truly gets easier. As to how it ends - [He chuffs a bitter half-laugh.] It was supposed to end for me a long time ago. Yet here I am. I am unsure what to think.

No. Right now, he doesn't know that, and I can take care him better now than before. And right now...he wouldn't do that, ever. He's a completely different person right now. [And he'll never do that to Kira. Unless he's cursed.]

I didn't think it does.

.... [Oh, he's heard that before, too, in a way, from Rosiel, just not those exact words. It's creepy.] Well, being here doesn't help. You can't really die here.

What do you mean, right now? [Understanding.] He's not from the same time in your world as you are, is he? How is he a different person?

Perhaps not. But I can bide my time, and hope to return to my true death. Or I can try and try until I succeed.

There are many ways to die, Setsuna. Even I haven't tried them all.

No, we're from different times. [And he doesn't say much more because he's pretty sure he isn't supposed to be talking about THAT. Especially when Kira doesn't know what's going to happen.]

I've tried a couple. It's not fun, and it hurts. Why would you keep persisting in it?

At some point, it is no longer about whether it's 'fun' or it 'hurts'. All you want is for everything to end. It doesn't matter how it's accomplished.

[That, and he's used to pain. As an inflicter, and as a sufferer. His Queen was an insane monster. He was a living lab-rat to a sadistic scientist for decades. It isn't physical agony that daunts him so much as continuing to live with this omnipresent turmoil in his head.]

[That really reminds him of Rosiel, so much Setsuna can't help the empathy, remembering what that felt like. His eyes tear over, and he has to turn away from the device screen.]

Then I'm sorry. [Clears his throat.] Sorry I can't do more for you. Here it would be pointless. But if we can leave and meet each other again, I can try.

Meet each other again?

[A shadowy smile.]

Hell isn't a likely place to see you, I'm afraid.

No, I've been there.

Is that the only place you have to go when you leave here?

[Ironic, imagining a cherub in Hell.]

Kira gave you a grand tour, did he?

[His smile takes on a decidedly twisted edge.]

That, and no other.

No, he wasn't there. I went to save a friend of mine.

[Well, he's at least smiling, Setsuna decides, but he can't smile anymore, nothing but pain.]

That's bullshit. Technically, in my world, Heaven and Hell are really pointless places.

This City is a fairly pointless place too.

I can either resign myself to it. Or I can seek to escape.

[Oh look, some hope!]

Then why don't you escape?

[Hopeful Karl. The ultimate paradox.]

The easiest way to do that is to die.

[Yeah. That's the only escape in Karl's vocabulary.]

Private

beyourarmy - 2012-05-02 03:42 (UTC) - Expand

worldofourown - 2012-05-02 03:44 (UTC) - Expand

beyourarmy - 2012-05-02 03:47 (UTC) - Expand

worldofourown - 2012-05-02 03:50 (UTC) - Expand

beyourarmy - 2012-05-02 03:52 (UTC) - Expand