Video; Complete with Deity Filter;

[oceantrauma]

I never wanted him to get hurt like he did. [Hurt is an understatement. Frown on his face and clear upset in Ken's voice as he keeps talking, almost like he's talking to himself, unaware the device is on, but he knows.] I never meant anything like that by what I said. My brother was actually good to me. I just lost sight of it and wanted him to disappear. I wish I hadn't been so childish and stupid about it. If I could've just looked past myself-

...no. I-I didn't turn the device on for this! [But it's like word vomit.]

[He switches the feed to a filter before he can say more. He'll still babble against his will in responses.]


Deity Filter:
Deities, I've never had to address you before, not like this, so I hope this is the way to talk to you. I can go to the office, if I have to.

I wish to make a trade.


[ooc: Cursed with My Dirty Little Secret, and unable to do anything but talk about his dead brother, and his severe jealousy issues all day. So for those that wanted to know more about Ken's brother, Ken's darker aspects, or didn't even know he had a brother? Ask away.]

Comments

[negativegate]

Hey--Ken?

[She's worried about how he sounds, a little curious about what he means.]

If this is a curse, you probably won't be able to stop it...

[oceantrauma]

Yeah, I can't. I just keep...thinking about him.

[Desperate attempt to divert his own attention.]

Are you spared this time, Rita-san?

[negativegate]

[She doesn't mind trying to distract him if she can. Poor kid sounds like a wreck.]

Yeah, as far as I can tell. It could be a different story tomorrow, though.

[oceantrauma]

Oh, one of those weekends. I don't think my brother would have liked this place very much.

Some people seem to adapt to it better, though. And sometimes I don't mind. But this curse is.... I don't care for it.

[negativegate]

People get cursed with different things, too, so some people get luckier.

I mean, I wouldn't mind listening if you wanted to talk, but--

I don't think it's right for curses to make you do it.

[oceantrauma]

[Lips pursed together, Ken nods his head.]

[negativegate]

[...Rita wonders how long he can keep from talking about it. Probably not long...]

Hey--do you think you'll be okay today? It might be better if you could sleep until tomorrow.

[oceantrauma]

I was going over to see Charlie-san and watch some movies with her. If that fails, I think I'll try that.

[He has no argument to that, whatsoever. It's a good idea. And his lips are closed tightly again.]

[negativegate]

All right. Let me know if the movies help, okay?

[Normally she'd be willing to chat with him longer, but she doesn't want to drag things out when he's obviously trying so hard not to talk about it.]

[oceantrauma]

Thank you, Rita-san. For being so understanding, and the suggestion. If the movies fail, I'll turn to sleep.

[But even that makes him think of his brother, but before he can say another word he shuts the device off.]