video - memory theatre

[firstaid]

((ooc: from 0:48 to 1:34 is her memory being posted.))

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[oceantrauma]

Estellise-san, do you still think it's okay if you die?

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[firstaid]

[She's confused by this text... Why is she getting it? Of course it's not okay, after all, she decided she wanted to live.

But it's the City, so she wonders and checks the network... and her eyes widen. Why that memory? Why now? It's...

Then again, it's the City. Nothing is fair.]

No, I don't. I found the resolve to live.

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[oceantrauma]

Good. I wouldn't want you to die.

I mean, we all have to. My brother did. But there's a time for that, and my friends made me see it's better to keep going than think that way. It'll happen eventually, so why rush into it when it's going to hurt everyone around us? That was what they made me realize.

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[firstaid]

I had my reasons back then, and I was convinced of it. However, my friends convinced me to live and for that, I'm grateful to them.

So I can relate to you in that respect. I'm terribly sorry to hear about your brother, though.

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[oceantrauma]

I was convinced it was the right thing to do, too. To make up for other things I had done.

I can't stop talking about him today. Even typing didn't prevent that. It's a curse, isn't it?

[firstaid]

Perhaps it is a curse. But your brother meant a lot to you, right?

[oceantrauma]

Yes, he did.

And your friends mean a lot to you, don't they?

[firstaid]

More than almost anything. I honestly don't know what I would do without them.

[oceantrauma]

I feel the same.

[sickbeat]

wait
what
no
that is actually the opposite of what you should be thinking

[firstaid]

Yes it is. It took some time for me to realize it, but I eventually did thanks to my friends.

[sickbeat]

oh
ok
thats good then
forget i said anything overly intrusive and dramatic on the matter

[firstaid]

No, it's fine. I suppose without context or without knowing me very well, it's rather easy to jump to conclusions.

[sickbeat]

so what are you anyway
some weapon of mass destruction
only in insipid human form?

[firstaid]

I was born with a formula that caused me to ingest large amounts of Aer to perform healing magic. Because of that, I was causing my world a lot of damage.

[sickbeat]

so youre actually the worlds deadliest math problem

[sacredpenance]

[This text is super delayed because it takes her some time to actually get the joke.]

I suppose so yes. I take it that's suppose to be a joke.

[sickbeat]

nope i was one hundred percent serious
nary a chuckle to be heard over here

[intheblanks]

There might not be magic where I come from, but the chickens are smaller and less bitchy.

[firstaid]

He had his reasoning for what he said. He simply wished to protect our world.

[intheblanks]

He could have fed the world with a couple of omelettes.

[firstaid]

I'm afraid that wasn't the problem. I alone was causing an imbalance of a necessary element in my world by simply existing. The simply solution she saw was to kill me... and at that time, I was okay with him wishing to do that.

[intheblanks]

Which of you changed their mind?

[sacredpenance]

Judith and Yuri convinced him not to kill me at that time. It wasn't until later that I realized that I truly wanted to live.