Aɢᴇɴᴛ Pʜɪʟ Cᴏᴜʟsᴏɴ (
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poly_chromatic2012-07-15 04:10 pm
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Ignore the weird format, I am cursed.
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The Loki we know. Not to be confused with his reincarnation.
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Loki is in the City. I suggest gathering information first, do not engage.
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What do you know about Loki?
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My first curse seems harmless. Hoping it'll establish a pattern.
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Look, he's left his jacket in his room and his shirtsleeves are rolled up. ] I was busy.
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You didn't get desperate and start doing other people's homework, did you?
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If anything, I did my own homework. Or assigned it to people.
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[ His effort to shift up and make room is a lazy one, leg still hanging over his side and body angled weird, but he knows Phil will make him move if he wants him to. He's testing the waters. ]
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[ He assesses the space on the couch for a moment, before taking Clint's legs and lifting them by the trousers, sitting down before letting them drop again. Yes that means Clint's legs are stretched over Phil's lap now.
How's that for testing the waters. ]
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[ He can control himself enough to keep the grin from breaking out wide across his face, but the smile in his eyes no doubt shows. He makes no attempt whatsoever to move them. ]
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[ Resting one hand over Clint's ankles. It's both innocent and— not so much, given that it's just one more step, one more sign, like an unspoken answer to the question of whether they're really doing this.
Not that the question was asked, directly. ]
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[ It's reassuring, to have Phil take initiative and everything to be easy, comfortable, as if it's normal for them, natural, and he knows it's only a touch, simple, but he takes comfort from it, as much as he knows how to, relieved that after everything he's done, in control or not, he's still touchable.
And it expresses that he's not in this alone, that it's not something he's imagined. ]
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Of course he's still touchable, and Phil— Phil's wanted this, him, for a long time. He still can't quite believe that they're doing this and with Loki's arrival, he's started to question that decision (even though nothing's happened yet between them, nothing except a few touches that were out of the ordinary, but they both know what it means). He's still their handler, if less officially now. He might still have to make a decision that puts Clint in harm's way and he'll have to be objective about it.
Then again, he hasn't been objective (compromised) when it comes to Clint (and Natasha, to a lesser extent, and Captain Ameria) in a while. He's only human, he can't switch off his emotions.
Fingers tightening over Clint's ankles. ]
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Everything falls quiet in the room, and Clint's watching him, an odd expression about him, as if he's contemplating what Phil could possibly be thinking about, the firmer touch confirming his guess. He knows he pushes his luck, and he never would have dared outside of this environment, but he's wondering if it's fair. He wants to not care, to be selfish, but he knows this is it for Phil, this is all he's got. ]
We don't have to watch the movie. [ The double meaning to the statement is probably obvious. He knows what it is to sacrifice things for what they do, it's one of the reasons why he signed up - if they're not close to anything, anyone, then they can't get hurt. Or so he thought. ] Sometimes there's more important things than sitting around watching stuff. I get that.
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After a moment. ] I could teach you.
[ Phil's jaw clenches visibly for a moment -- he gets what Clint is saying, what he's offering and the understanding that's there is something that he couldn't have asked for but is glad to receive nevertheless.
And at the same time he hates it. He doesn't want for things to end before they've given them a chance to get started. He isn't perfectly objective, but he wouldn't be even if they stopped now. Or so he thinks, and he isn't sure whether he's just grasping at justifications or actually having a point there. Either way.
Clearing his throat, and then, deceptively light: ] I was rather curious now. You made the plot sound so engaging.
[ Thumb rubbing small circles into the skin over Clint's ankle. ]
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Still, learning the lingo can't hurt, and he's open to find as many excuses to follow Phil around as possible. ] It'll be a learning experience all around. It'll be a true test of patience.
[ He doesn't take his gaze away, intense, but soft, as if he's holding onto the hope, waiting for everything to be decided for him, a future he never thought he could have, would never have allowed himself to imagine. But there it is, in a few words, and if he looks down, taking a moment to smile secretly at the relief, then he doesn't try to hide it.
The touch sets goosebumps crawling over his flesh, but it's nice, reassuring. He wants to offer the same, but the best he manages is reaching for the remote to press play. ] Haven't come across anything with as much appeal as this in a long time, but something tells me it's gonna be worth it.
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Clint's smile is the best reward and the warmth it makes blossom in Phil's chest tells him it was the right decision, for all that there's reasons against it. ]
I'm aflutter with anticipation. [ Perfectly deadpan and dry, but his thumb's still rubbing circles into Clint's skin. He doesn't much care for the movie. ]
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