had_not_lived: (☞ Push off and sitting well in order)
Neil Perry ([personal profile] had_not_lived) wrote in [community profile] poly_chromatic2012-06-17 07:48 pm

♕ |[ 88 ]| What did I know, what did I know, of love's austere and lonely offices?

[ACCIDENTAL AUDIO]

--did a better job of it, you know. If only for a couple of days.

[Quietly, Neil's talking to... well, it's probably obvious. He doesn't sound angry; just a bit sad. Weary. It's been a long day, already. Now he pauses, listening to something inaudible.]

Not so badly after all, apparently. I almost wish you would come, just to visit-- to see what I've managed here. I think some of it-- some of it-- you'd have to be proud of. You would. At least a little bit.

[Another long pause.]

Well, of course not. [A sigh.] I'm trying to read, all right? You aren't real. Go away.
dr_conscience: (What // Sideglance)

[personal profile] dr_conscience 2012-06-19 02:41 am (UTC)(link)
[Nah, he's not going to say anything about that first sentence fragment.]

I think there's a lot to be said for a good pair of headphones.
dr_conscience: (Well... // Considering)

[personal profile] dr_conscience 2012-06-24 12:55 am (UTC)(link)
Might not be a bad idea to pull them out anyway, knowing summer in the City.

[And shifting his tone slightly,]

For whatever it's worth - I really don't see how anyone could not be proud of you. Even if it's not what they wanted for you.
dr_conscience: (Listening // Tilt)

[personal profile] dr_conscience 2012-06-24 01:52 am (UTC)(link)
[He's... remembered enough from some of their less pleasant conversations to have an idea.]

It might take him some time, but I do think he would. But if you're proud, if you're happy-- that's the most important thing.

[Residual fatherly feelings are... somewhat awkward.]
dr_conscience: (Watching // Calm)

[personal profile] dr_conscience 2012-06-25 03:52 am (UTC)(link)
I know - you're hardly alone there, today.

Still. If he did show up, I think he'd get there.
dr_conscience: (Gentle // Almost smile)

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[personal profile] dr_conscience 2012-06-25 04:18 am (UTC)(link)
Well, you don't rally have to thank me, but... you're welcome. To be honest, it was one of the most pleasant curses I've been through here.
dr_conscience: (Listening // Thoughtful)

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[personal profile] dr_conscience 2012-06-26 01:54 am (UTC)(link)
It is disconcerting, having an entire life you never lived thrust upon you for a couple of days, but, seeing as we don't really have a choice... I don't think there's much harm in enjoying a curse that isn't awful.
dr_conscience: (Quiet // Thinking)

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[personal profile] dr_conscience 2012-06-28 02:47 am (UTC)(link)
[Kid, what are you doing to his heart?]

Well... thank you, Neil. That actually does mean a lot-- after all, that curse is the closest I've gotten so far.

[That sounds kind of pathetic, doesn't it? Sob.]

Your father, though... if you give them time, sometimes people can surprise you. I think it's important to remember that this is a curse, and that while you're probably not wrong, at least on his initial response, it's not necessarily how he would react so much as how you expect he would.
dr_conscience: (Really // Listening)

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[personal profile] dr_conscience 2012-06-28 04:43 am (UTC)(link)
[Wilson knows that all too well.]

I'm sure there are a lot of things he'd have a difficult time with - and, obviously, you know him far better than I do, so I would never dispute that. But I know that you're a smart, talented young man, and I know that you've really made something for yourself here. He might be angry at you, but I'm sure, deep down, he'd like to know that you're happy.
othersdie: truly, I have wept too much (Lost)

[personal profile] othersdie 2012-06-20 04:27 am (UTC)(link)
They don't ever listen when you tell them they're not real.
othersdie: we feel, in all of this, a certain lack (Concerned)

[personal profile] othersdie 2012-06-20 04:39 am (UTC)(link)
Does it help?
othersdie: are you exiled in those bottomless nights? (Glasses: Reading)

[personal profile] othersdie 2012-06-20 04:58 am (UTC)(link)
That's something.

[Justin wants to offer to do something vaguely helpful, but he doesn't have any ideas. Maybe the sentiment gets across, unspoken as it is.]
othersdie: the low-hanging sun speckled with mystic horrors (Uneasy)

[personal profile] othersdie 2012-06-20 07:06 am (UTC)(link)
[Neil's quite clever. It's not an easy language to learn.]

Not cursed. We said all we needed to say last time.

[And still just barely on this side of functional after Mara being murdered and Euphie leaving and curses, but that doesn't need to be put into words. At least he has the cat. This one's considerably more affectionate than Neith was.]

Maybe the City only brings fathers back when something's been left unresolved.
othersdie: are you exiled in those bottomless nights? (Defeated)

[personal profile] othersdie 2012-06-21 05:24 am (UTC)(link)
No. Probably not.

[A hesitation, and then a rather bold proclamation.] I think that a normal parent would be proud. Of you--what you've accomplished here.
othersdie: are you exiled in those bottomless nights? (She never notices)

[personal profile] othersdie 2012-06-23 03:07 am (UTC)(link)
You're welcome.

[Because, as heartfelt as that was, it's hard to come up with a decent follow-up.]

Only a little?
othersdie: happy in present good, pale from evil past (Almost a smile)

[personal profile] othersdie 2012-06-23 11:57 pm (UTC)(link)
All things considered, he should be able to forgive that.
anunluckypenny: [rapture inside of me] (Concern: Pity)

[personal profile] anunluckypenny 2012-06-20 04:32 am (UTC)(link)
Neil? Are you okay?

[Well, no, duh--talking to a ghost-dad.]

I mean, would anything help... quiet him down, or something?
anunluckypenny: [so they say] (Waiting)

[personal profile] anunluckypenny 2012-06-20 04:53 am (UTC)(link)
Okay.

...Look, I know that whole family curse was kind of weird, but if you ever need anything, I'd really like to help. When I can, I mean, not when... ghost dads are hanging around.
anunluckypenny: [every drop of rain] (Nervous)

[personal profile] anunluckypenny 2012-06-20 06:58 am (UTC)(link)
Alright.

[Private]

About the family thing? Basically all of it... at least, you know, the things that happened. I don't remember getting married or anything, but brunch and the-- [and hanky panky with Wilson, but let's not mention that] --everything.

Why? Did you forget, or is there stuff I should forget?
anunluckypenny: [I guess he's pretty okay] (Confused: Say what?)

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[personal profile] anunluckypenny 2012-06-21 03:33 am (UTC)(link)
About you and...? Oh, the--okay, no, I totally understand, and I won't say anything to anyone. It's alright, though, you know? The City's pretty accepting. Some of my best friends're in really good queer relationships.

[Oversharing? Yes. Definitely.]

Sorry. But I promise.
anunluckypenny: [rapture inside of me] (Believes there's good)

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[personal profile] anunluckypenny 2012-06-21 03:50 am (UTC)(link)
Well... if you don't want too many people knowing, that's good enough for me. As long as you're happy.

[They were so cute during the curse. Penny sincerely hopes they're that adorable the rest of the time.]
anunluckypenny: [rapture inside of me] (Smile: Bright)

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[personal profile] anunluckypenny 2012-06-21 05:30 am (UTC)(link)
[Then carry on being adorable! The City needs some functional relationships in it to give everyone else a little hope.]

I think I get it, though. That kind of thing isn't as okay wherever you're from as it is here, right?
anunluckypenny: [so they say] (Waiting)

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[personal profile] anunluckypenny 2012-06-23 02:05 am (UTC)(link)
When makes a lot of sense, too.

Whatever the rest of it is, my lips are sealed. Completely. And that applies to my fingers, too, although I don't know the "lips zipped" finger equivalent.