Neil Perry (
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♕ |[ 88 ]| What did I know, what did I know, of love's austere and lonely offices?
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--did a better job of it, you know. If only for a couple of days.
[Quietly, Neil's talking to... well, it's probably obvious. He doesn't sound angry; just a bit sad. Weary. It's been a long day, already. Now he pauses, listening to something inaudible.]
Not so badly after all, apparently. I almost wish you would come, just to visit-- to see what I've managed here. I think some of it-- some of it-- you'd have to be proud of. You would. At least a little bit.
[Another long pause.]
Well, of course not. [A sigh.] I'm trying to read, all right? You aren't real. Go away.
--did a better job of it, you know. If only for a couple of days.
[Quietly, Neil's talking to... well, it's probably obvious. He doesn't sound angry; just a bit sad. Weary. It's been a long day, already. Now he pauses, listening to something inaudible.]
Not so badly after all, apparently. I almost wish you would come, just to visit-- to see what I've managed here. I think some of it-- some of it-- you'd have to be proud of. You would. At least a little bit.
[Another long pause.]
Well, of course not. [A sigh.] I'm trying to read, all right? You aren't real. Go away.
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I think there's a lot to be said for a good pair of headphones.
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He laughs, and it's only a little exasperated.]
That's not a bad idea. I think we have earmuffs, somewhere in all the winter stuff...
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[And shifting his tone slightly,]
For whatever it's worth - I really don't see how anyone could not be proud of you. Even if it's not what they wanted for you.
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I-- thank you. [Even if you're not his real dad.] Don't get me wrong-- I'm proud of what I've accomplished here, I just... think it'd take him some time to see why.
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It might take him some time, but I do think he would. But if you're proud, if you're happy-- that's the most important thing.
[Residual fatherly feelings are... somewhat awkward.]
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[Awkward is right, but the warmth in his tone is genuine.]
It's-- this isn't him, not really him. I don't want people to get the wrong idea.
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Still. If he did show up, I think he'd get there.
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[Private]
I did want to say-- thank you, for everything. Really. As strange as the weekend was... well, it wasn't a bad curse.
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I think-- well, today's curse has made it clear my father wouldn't approve, but... I think you'd have been a good one.
[Better than his, maybe, but he won't go quite so far as to say it.
Not in so many words.]
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Well... thank you, Neil. That actually does mean a lot-- after all, that curse is the closest I've gotten so far.
[That sounds kind of pathetic, doesn't it? Sob.]
Your father, though... if you give them time, sometimes people can surprise you. I think it's important to remember that this is a curse, and that while you're probably not wrong, at least on his initial response, it's not necessarily how he would react so much as how you expect he would.
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I think it's just-- there are certain aspects of my life here that... I don't know if he could accept them, not really. But he might be able to look past that. I think, maybe it's just that I have a hard time imagining anything but him being angry.
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I'm sure there are a lot of things he'd have a difficult time with - and, obviously, you know him far better than I do, so I would never dispute that. But I know that you're a smart, talented young man, and I know that you've really made something for yourself here. He might be angry at you, but I'm sure, deep down, he'd like to know that you're happy.
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[Aw, Wilson. It doesn't even matter if you're not his real dad, you're still good at it.]
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[Justin wants to offer to do something vaguely helpful, but he doesn't have any ideas. Maybe the sentiment gets across, unspoken as it is.]
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How are you?
[Cursed?]
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Not cursed. We said all we needed to say last time.
[And still just barely on this side of functional after Mara being murdered and Euphie leaving and curses, but that doesn't need to be put into words. At least he has the cat. This one's considerably more affectionate than Neith was.]
Maybe the City only brings fathers back when something's been left unresolved.
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I don't think this is likely to resolve anything, though. Not for me, anyway.
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[A hesitation, and then a rather bold proclamation.] I think that a normal parent would be proud. Of you--what you've accomplished here.
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Thank you. Really. [A pause, a little embarrassed, but not in a bad way.] I think-- if he were really here, he might even. A little bit. [If he heard running a bookstore and owning property and arranging plays before he got to the bit about Todd.]
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[Because, as heartfelt as that was, it's hard to come up with a decent follow-up.]
Only a little?
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[Well, no, duh--talking to a ghost-dad.]
I mean, would anything help... quiet him down, or something?
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I think this is one I've just got to wait out.
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...Look, I know that whole family curse was kind of weird, but if you ever need anything, I'd really like to help. When I can, I mean, not when... ghost dads are hanging around.
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But... Can I ask-- about that, how much do you remember about it?
[In other words, do you know about your former-sort-of-step-son's boyfriend?]
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About the family thing? Basically all of it... at least, you know, the things that happened. I don't remember getting married or anything, but brunch and the-- [and hanky panky with Wilson, but let's not mention that] --everything.
Why? Did you forget, or is there stuff I should forget?
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Well, not exactly-- just--
The thing is, not everyone knows. About me and Todd, I mean, and-- if you could just not mention it to anyone, we'd really appreciate it.
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[Oversharing? Yes. Definitely.]
Sorry. But I promise.
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It's not even exactly secret, it's just... private. [Saying it that way sounds ridiculous, even to him.] I guess it's just hard to get used to.
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[They were so cute during the curse. Penny sincerely hopes they're that adorable the rest of the time.]
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We are, we really are. And-- I mean, we are a lot more open about it than we used to be, just... not as open as I thought we were over the weekend. So it's kind of strange, explaining it after the fact.
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I think I get it, though. That kind of thing isn't as okay wherever you're from as it is here, right?
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But... that's it, or part of it, anyway.
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Whatever the rest of it is, my lips are sealed. Completely. And that applies to my fingers, too, although I don't know the "lips zipped" finger equivalent.
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