That's how I'm looking at it. Whether it was a curse or not, it was a nice feeling, and with everything unpleasant the City puts us through... I can hardly say that hanging onto the positive seems unwise.

[That's a feeling he knows well - not that he's entirely given up on having a family of his own, but he knows he only has so long when he gets back home. Not that he realizes exactly how short a time he has left. Nor does he really think he's ever going to get home to stay.

It's out of deference to Penny's situation, though, that he doesn't elaborate.]