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[As she thought. Some time, she'd like to be more than just observing as terrible things happen all around.] Okay. [The words are right there, an apology she knows he wouldn't accept, would only make things worse. Maybe nothing won't, just now, but she has to do something -- doesn't she? Have to at least try?]

I don't blame you. [He took advantage, true, but it wasn't as though it was entirely off her mind even before the curse, enough that at the first convenient excuse... and even now when she shudders at the memory, it's not entirely in disgust. A thousand reasons to hate him, and she can't manage it.] It was my -- I mean, I wouldn't have, if I didn't...