If I was gonna give up, I would've done it long before now. [ Quieter. ] It's knowing he'd be disappointed if I fucked it up along the way, the pressure of knowing there's no option but to keep going.

[ Or maybe he's just had too much alcohol the last week, but he knows he's not going to crawl away to die somewhere, wouldn't insult Phil by doing it, and after everything he's been through to get here, well, he really would have walked away before now. ]