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....It's not very safe to eat ice cream while you're hanging off a roof.
[ but his voice is fairly muted, and lacking his usual pointed edge. ]
[ but his voice is fairly muted, and lacking his usual pointed edge. ]
I feel like I just watched a movie. [HE KNOWS ABOUT MOVIES NOW!!!!!]
Of your life? Or the life of someone who looks exactly like you?
Of your life? Or the life of someone who looks exactly like you?
[THEY ARE TOTALLY AWESOME. and he's just gonna nod because....ok sure we can roll with this.]
So what's the Organization, exactly? And why are you guys dressed all in black? Part of the uniform?
So what's the Organization, exactly? And why are you guys dressed all in black? Part of the uniform?
[ Tilting his head as he drops down beside him, he folds his legs up under him - criss-cross applesauce another kid once described it and Sora's not really sure why but the phrasing still makes him smile. ]
You okay?
[ He's not sure still how to navigate waters involving Axel, involving anything Organization with Roxas which on the one hand is maybe silly. He's never given this much thought to inter-workings before, but maybe that's the result of being in one place for so long. He wonders if he'll think about this stuff when eventually they leave and hopes as fast that he will. Some people say they forget but Sora doesn't want to. His time here is important to him the way all individual things are - like nothing else, and irreplaceable. ]
You okay?
[ He's not sure still how to navigate waters involving Axel, involving anything Organization with Roxas which on the one hand is maybe silly. He's never given this much thought to inter-workings before, but maybe that's the result of being in one place for so long. He wonders if he'll think about this stuff when eventually they leave and hopes as fast that he will. Some people say they forget but Sora doesn't want to. His time here is important to him the way all individual things are - like nothing else, and irreplaceable. ]
I'm all right.
[ He really is. If it were another memory, or if he were in a different place emotionally, maybe he wouldn't have been. But while he still doesn't like the idea of his past going on display, and there's still a painful tugging sensation in his chest, there are good feelings, too. ]
It was kind of nice to see him again.
[ He really is. If it were another memory, or if he were in a different place emotionally, maybe he wouldn't have been. But while he still doesn't like the idea of his past going on display, and there's still a painful tugging sensation in his chest, there are good feelings, too. ]
It was kind of nice to see him again.
[ Sora can, in a sense, identify with enjoying just seeing or hearing someone. It's how he feels he supposes about dreams; he often dreams of home and it's something ultimately he'd rather experience than, well, not. With Roxas of course it's different, these being memories, things of history rather than subconscious missing. But there's a common ground somewhere between the two - the appreciation of things even if they aren't immediately here or simply are no longer.
Their shoulders bump purposefully as Sora leans to one side briefly before straightening. ]
It was nice for me too, if it's okay to say. [ He pauses, takes a lick of the ice cream, pauses, kicks his feet. ] Wish I got to know him more.
[ For his perspective on Roxas and for Axel in and of himself, Axel who Sora can never and will never quite believe didn't have something of a heart. 'Facts' pale in the face of gut feelings for someone like Sora. It's part of why he is who he is and sometimes it's folly. But sometimes it's not. ]
Their shoulders bump purposefully as Sora leans to one side briefly before straightening. ]
It was nice for me too, if it's okay to say. [ He pauses, takes a lick of the ice cream, pauses, kicks his feet. ] Wish I got to know him more.
[ For his perspective on Roxas and for Axel in and of himself, Axel who Sora can never and will never quite believe didn't have something of a heart. 'Facts' pale in the face of gut feelings for someone like Sora. It's part of why he is who he is and sometimes it's folly. But sometimes it's not. ]
You would have liked him.
[ He bumps back, a little playfully, certain in his assessment, and not because he knows Sora well now. He knows Axel too, the real Axel, and he can't imagine people not liking him.
Maybe not Vexen. ]
It was like that most of the time with us. He didn't have to worry about the rest of the Organization when we hung out, or about putting up some kind of front—that was the good part. We got to just be ourselves, best friends.
[ He bumps back, a little playfully, certain in his assessment, and not because he knows Sora well now. He knows Axel too, the real Axel, and he can't imagine people not liking him.
Maybe not Vexen. ]
It was like that most of the time with us. He didn't have to worry about the rest of the Organization when we hung out, or about putting up some kind of front—that was the good part. We got to just be ourselves, best friends.
[ Sora smiles, and though what he's looking at is his ice cream, what he sees is something different - flashes of the memory just viewed interspersed with himself and Kairi on the dock or Riku and him on the shore watching a star fall. They're conversing but it's more than that, and he's not sure if it's just the understanding of friendship or that coupled with their particular connection. Maybe. ]
I was liking him before... [ he trails off, nips at his ice cream. ] ...so yeah I think I would have too.
I'm glad...I'm always glad to know you guys were friends.
[ Sora doesn't tend to do 'pity' so it's none of that, none of the oh it makes me feel better about myself. It's about Roxas and what Sora still thinks is an abundance of unfairnesses without knowing the half of them, just being aware of a lot of invisible strings in the ether. To have at least a friend, a good friend - the kind of friend with no holds barred. Roxas deserves such a being. More than, even. He shakes his head, half smiling this time. ]
It's not the same, but I know I always've felt more myself with Riku and Kairi. And you actually. While we've been here I mean. Over time. Um.
[ Another bite of ice cream and he laughs sheepishly. ] 's why I'm glad we are here.
I was liking him before... [ he trails off, nips at his ice cream. ] ...so yeah I think I would have too.
I'm glad...I'm always glad to know you guys were friends.
[ Sora doesn't tend to do 'pity' so it's none of that, none of the oh it makes me feel better about myself. It's about Roxas and what Sora still thinks is an abundance of unfairnesses without knowing the half of them, just being aware of a lot of invisible strings in the ether. To have at least a friend, a good friend - the kind of friend with no holds barred. Roxas deserves such a being. More than, even. He shakes his head, half smiling this time. ]
It's not the same, but I know I always've felt more myself with Riku and Kairi. And you actually. While we've been here I mean. Over time. Um.
[ Another bite of ice cream and he laughs sheepishly. ] 's why I'm glad we are here.
Things got hard sometimes, before the end.
[ His smile slips a little, but while there's faint regret on his face and in his tone, there's peace, too. He doesn't wrestle with past decisions so much anymore. ]
Even though I know now why he lied to me about who I was...about you...I get why he did it. At the end, I forgave him. And he knew that.
[ Their last moments together — as themselves, not as mind and spirit in someone else's heart — hadn't been the happiest, but Roxas is so, so grateful for them. They hadn't gotten a happy ending, but they'd understood each other fully, maybe for the first time. ]
You know, he came to get me — take me out of that fake town they put me in. I didn't remember who he was, so of course I didn't go with him. But he kept trying. He said the Organization gave him orders to destroy me if he couldn't bring me back to them, but that wasn't why he was t here.
[ His smile slips a little, but while there's faint regret on his face and in his tone, there's peace, too. He doesn't wrestle with past decisions so much anymore. ]
Even though I know now why he lied to me about who I was...about you...I get why he did it. At the end, I forgave him. And he knew that.
[ Their last moments together — as themselves, not as mind and spirit in someone else's heart — hadn't been the happiest, but Roxas is so, so grateful for them. They hadn't gotten a happy ending, but they'd understood each other fully, maybe for the first time. ]
You know, he came to get me — take me out of that fake town they put me in. I didn't remember who he was, so of course I didn't go with him. But he kept trying. He said the Organization gave him orders to destroy me if he couldn't bring me back to them, but that wasn't why he was t here.
[ With his mouthful of ice cream Sora doesn't cut the most serious image, but his attention to Roxas is genuine and it somehow manages to relegate ice-cream eating to the same vein as folding one's hands in one's lap - peripheral, dismissible, ignorable. He listens and shifts a little not so he's facing Roxas' profile straight-on but angled so he's no longer turning his head like a flamingo.
At the last thing Sora nods, eyes then downcast, turning the cone absently in his hand. ]
...if it was up to you...would you want to see him again - here I mean?
[ He doesn't even want to say out loud or would that be worse but it is what he wonders, what he thinks. Is the end of one story better left alone or is it what Sora has for the longest time always opted for: flexibility, potentiality, opportunity. But this is about Roxas and his take on it, and that's even more so the point of asking. Roxas says he forgave Axel and Sora supposes they understood each other, the way really only people who have been friends can. Would it be hurtful to have more when you've squared with the reality of an ending? And maybe, he wonders, could you want it anyway? ]
At the last thing Sora nods, eyes then downcast, turning the cone absently in his hand. ]
...if it was up to you...would you want to see him again - here I mean?
[ He doesn't even want to say out loud or would that be worse but it is what he wonders, what he thinks. Is the end of one story better left alone or is it what Sora has for the longest time always opted for: flexibility, potentiality, opportunity. But this is about Roxas and his take on it, and that's even more so the point of asking. Roxas says he forgave Axel and Sora supposes they understood each other, the way really only people who have been friends can. Would it be hurtful to have more when you've squared with the reality of an ending? And maybe, he wonders, could you want it anyway? ]
[chin in hand]
Just a group full of people in black coats. I see.
Just a group full of people in black coats. I see.
Just because you never fell before doesn't mean you won't fall in the future. Idiot.
[well. that didn't work.]
I was sort of curious about the 'little more to it' part, but if you'd rather not elaborate, that's cool.
I was sort of curious about the 'little more to it' part, but if you'd rather not elaborate, that's cool.
[ There's something to be said for finding peace in an ending that was good enough—not perfectly happy, not the ending they would have chosen, but a decent enough memory to rest easy.
But there's a lot more to be said for spending time with your best friend, and even with no guarantee that things wouldn't end more abruptly or painfully, Roxas would be willing to do a lot to get that time. ]
Yeah, I would. Even if it wouldn't change anything back home—it'd still mean something here, you know? And as long as we're in the City, what we've got here is all that really matters.
But there's a lot more to be said for spending time with your best friend, and even with no guarantee that things wouldn't end more abruptly or painfully, Roxas would be willing to do a lot to get that time. ]
Yeah, I would. Even if it wouldn't change anything back home—it'd still mean something here, you know? And as long as we're in the City, what we've got here is all that really matters.
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