I... that's the thing, I don't know. I can't tell. It's like there's something there, right in the side of my vision, something right behind me, something two steps away, just out of reach, and then I try to focus on it, and stare at it, and it's just gone.

[A shaky sigh.]

And I don't want to focus on it, because I know that if I look for too long, I'll see something I don't want to see.